My Life And Prison

hey my name is Tyler Ussery im 17 years old and i have been a juggalo since age six bcuz my friend which is a ninja and was 13 at the time introduced me to them before i was not religius at all but the Dark Carnival grabbed me at my soul and squeezed it and gave me the knowlegde of what i am a juggalo and a ninja.... when i was born i wasnt in a hospital my mother was in prison and she didnt know she was pregnant so i was a supprise when one morning my mother started going through labor by herself i never was even craddled b4 the guards took me from her she is still in prison and i have never met her... i was given to my father he is a traveling mechanic and he had to leave me at my aunts house when he went on long trips but he loved me more than u will ever know... my mom got out and got pregnant and had my brother bryan another juggalo and then she violated parole and went back to prison to finish her time she has 20 years she gets out 2015 i dont remember her face but i remember her touch.... well i just got outa prison myself november 16 2011 was in there since december 13 2009 i was always in institutions since i was 6 years old because i threw a chair a my teacher that was my first charge and was sent to a mental instutions every year till i was 15 years old 6 months a year i was in an instution. when i was 12 i was sent to rehab because i was addicted to pills i always got high but belived i was always going to remember the ways of normal life. well now i find it really hard in society i feel that im instututionalized can the family pray that i can get through this stage in my life to feel at peace and not feel like i dont belonged thank u and if yall can add me because i need family right now to get through this  var fctb_tool=null; function FCTB_Init_358ad64f041e4873adee6608bee0ce71(t) { fctb_tool=t; start(fctb_tool); } FCTB_Init_358ad64f041e4873adee6608bee0ce71(document['FCTB_Init_3b3de129216c40169b3ec1c8593e07c1']); delete document['FCTB_Init_3b3de129216c40169b3ec1c8593e07c1']