Way Of Thinking (for Me Atleast)

i just wanna say im new to the family (maybe been there for 2 or 3 months) and i know every juggalo i hang with believes in god but for me its complicated its not that i dont believe... (theres gotta be a higher power somewhere) but i want to see what happens to me when i die through my souls eyes i guess. but the proof of god vs the devil is in EVERY SONG OUT THERE not just icp but all bands are saying the same thing about the gov. but really ive had no experience with god what-so-ever.. if theres one religion i can relate to is buddhism (or however you spell it) because there are no downs they say that every religion leads to its own heaven and if thats true when i die maybe ill be able to be in MY heaven. idk im just sayin... icp's taught me "Dont talk about it, BE about it." and if im gonna be about it then ill take my stand on my own terms and shape my own destiny the way i want it to be. yeah i know it sounds selfish because i say me so much but i beleive the human mind can expand farther than you can imagine and its just the way i think im just wonderin if theres other people who feel the same way? var fctb_tool=null; function FCTB_Init_cd7a86c0895a4dc2aa137b33d1035642(t) { fctb_tool=t; start(fctb_tool); } FCTB_Init_cd7a86c0895a4dc2aa137b33d1035642(document['FCTB_Init_8749e9be78bf4f7fb542996dd6c16a7d']); delete document['FCTB_Init_8749e9be78bf4f7fb542996dd6c16a7d']